I was wrong to live for a dream if I had my life to live over I would never dream...

 La pausa la pones tú.

es cierto.

sí, requiero validación aún porque hasta mi propia prima me dejó plantada para un favor que le iba a hacer yo

pero es un patrón tóxico

que reconozco y supongo que volveré al bueno que quizás no me ha elegido pero  por ahora ha respetado mis límites. 

decir, sí, a las 15 no es difícil

so, again

3 am, 10 pm whatever hour and you won't come

it was a fucking game

and you wanted to touch my body

that was it

you did not really care about me

you just wanted to have me so another would not have me

and it is still sad because my pleaser one wanted to give it to you

and it is still sad because my v was turned on just by hearing your voice

I still don't know what love is

but butterflies

and intensity and candy

I guess that is not

it rots your soul

we never sounded fin together anyways

I can say bye to an ex job finally

thanks

to that dream that shoed me you left earlier and I could not see you

that showed me you stepped far but did not approach me

you were more concrete but still you did not really care and it is fine

I appeared from nowhere

and thank you

I hope next time I can rescue myself

but I guess I did 

you were not the only person that helped me out of feeling lonely

I guess this time I will be the one erasing your messages. 

There is no you

without me looking at you

there is no chance of being killed by this stupid game if I stop caring

We are fucking grownups so... And those are games I don't like no more. 

I won't burn phases even if my body is fuckin' burning for it. It was wrong.

Why I let you do this to me? Remains unanswered. But at least martial arts have turned me stronger. I am sure now, I still have to stay. Even if I don't like them all the time. They've been saving me from the toxicity.

Your dream if it really was one, like I told you, I feel proud, because it shows I won't let someone surpass my personal boundaries anymore without making a clear and assertive statement that it is wrong. And if you don't like that I guess you will discard yourself on your own doing me a favor because I am not your mami.

Y para la otra, I am not a collectible or disposable Pokemon card. I am not staying in any ex work whatsapp group just because whatever reason. I am not a fruit or organic whatever. I'd rather be alone or looking for spaces or places that provide me more .nourishment. The game is over.