I didn't have to belong anywhere... anymore

 just to be with me driving forever

with s great playlist but then

depression came back again

I am reinforcing relationships and interactions to make me believe and feel I don't belong

I put limits or tried on people that did not choose me

but I might be still choosing new people that aligns with the pattern

even if they are good people

they don't choose me

I was beaten on my own game

and I cannot enjoy it as much as I used to before

when you get conscious on the effect of music and the emotions you might be avoiding or not communicating by leaving it all to it to self explain

everything stops making sense again