It's amazing

I can't stop being sad
I just can not
Filth is outside and inside
I can not stop it
And I can't fuckin' forgive you even if you didn't harm me as half as the rest
I just can not forgive that you left
And I JUST WANTED TO HUG  U
I don't think I'll be coming back
It just hurts
The sun is shining outside but I don't know where my lights are
It rained yesterday
But it didn't clean up everything
It just made it all filthy

I guess I won't stop getting sad for a while
I don't know when that while fuckin' ends
But...
It won't be soon.