I'm afraid also because of her

She's the representation of what could be

Of an inspiring alive maker of dreams 

She makes them alive. 

The fears flow then but remain due to past experiences

What could be

What if you could live alone on a decent place

What if you could change career or build it up

What if you could live from your passion

What if the food reunites people of different contexts and stories

What if you are the best choice

What if you can ride your bike at nights

What if you can be the best version of yourself

Therefore, an inspiring alive person. 

But fears always emerge and come back to me 

what if I get disappointed due to high expectations 

Disappointed from me or from her

What if I am not good enough

What if she leaves me like anybody else

What if I am not invited to eating food together 

 

+++update

You

were

:)